My Wizard

It was about 3:30am.  I had just gotten back to the hostel after a night of drinking at Saddle Ranch to find someone sleeping in my bed and all my stuff gone.  I was hysterical and in tears.  It was my first night EVER in a hostel and I was just not having it.  I was arguing with the guy at the front desk but he wasn't helping, he just wanted to move me to another hostel. Then you walked in, black pants and your red button-up shirt, for some reason I felt so relieved seeing another person walk in, it's like I knew at that moment everything would be okay.
You asked if I was alright and I said not really.  I told you the situation.  You looked at me and then at the guy at the front desk and said "give her a blanket and a pillow and we will work this out in the morning." He tried arguing with you but you said it again and he gave up and handed me a blanket and pillow. "You can stay with me tonight so no worries. This is all part of traveling, so don't stress, we will work it out in the morning."
I felt a little akward lying in your bed,  you were in nothing but boxers and kept talking about how you had been doing the shuffle all night.  "What is this Australian guy talking about?" I kept thinking LOL.  We lay there for a bit when I said "I can't sleep."  "I have a bottle of rum.  We can go downstairs for some drinks if you want" was your reply.
So we headed downstairs for some late night drinks.  We talked quite a bit, in fact I don't think we ran out of stuff to talk about.  We laughed and flirted and then crawled back into your bed and finally went to sleep.
I slept in your bed every night after that.  We talked about anything and everything.  You told me about your travels and the adventures you had.  I told you why I had come out to LA. We watched movies, listened to music, we talked about family, careers, relationships,  there were no boundaries to what we talked about.  We would stay up till the sun came up every morning or until one of us (usually me) would fall asleep mid story or movie.
At the end of that first month you asked me to move in with you. Steve had a room and we could move in with in two days and you wanted me to go with you.  I didn't even have to think about it.  I said yes with no hesitation.  I was so scared to move in with you.  I had never lived with a guy before,  I was really nervous.  We didn't even have time to talk about because you worked the next two days.  The night we moved in I told you I was nervous, that I had never done this before.  You said neither had you but we were in this together and just wrapped your arms around me.
I spent the best five months of my life with you - late night talks, Jenny's drink, teaching you how to cook,  NetFlix, True Blood (we never got to finish it), beef jerky and raspberry snapple every night in bed,  our little cocoon, stealing the blankets (it was all you), the light fairy, the Melbourne Shuffle, teaching me the Melbourne Shuffle, the many many nights in the party room, "doing laundry", almost getting kicked out for "doing laundry", MoMo, Lady GaGa, Anzac day, Yo Momma jokes with D, hustling to get a private room, "the other couple", tickets, stealing tickets (you better win me something good), Kino (our favourite restaurant), quitting smoking, thinking you can drink me under the table (my mom is waiting for the challenge), our late night drinking sessions in our room at the apartment,  seeing the sun come up almost every morning, snuggling,  late nights (the favourite part of my day), naps,  "Emmie what do you do in the morning?" how are you up so early, calling me a cradle snatcher, having completely different taste in clothing, CUNT lol, our little family - Justo, Dallas, you and me, "I am Vampire," Metro trivia which I am still planning on beating you at, always moving on Ryan time lol its so true, never being able to get anywhere at a good time, Minute to Win It, Judge Judy, getting kicked off of Judge Joe Brown, Kesha - do you ever wonder if P. Diddy wakes up feeling like Kesha?, Steve's obsession with Alice in Chains,  The Rooster song,  kill Justo's rooster, never wanting to eat chicken again, waiting for the bus at 4am after work at Hollywood and Highland drinking a bottle of rum, Spike aka RJ, Queen Victoria, Victoria, Chiller (the wet lizard), a 16 bedroom dorm room,  smelly socks, all our stuff getting stolen, the Usher Party - I have to use my visa it's an emergency we need more drinks $160 later, bed bugs, bed bugs and more bed bugs, losing the apartment, Vegas - the best birthday ever, hustling for free limo rides, the awful bus drivers, getting dorkified, our day trips ending up being just us hanging out and drinking, night time tears,  the dreaded hostel cough that I gave to everyone, hat wars, Ryan, Ryan, Ryan, Ryan, Ryan, Ryan, Ryan, Ryan, R, Y, A, N, Ryan, Ryan, Ryan, Ryan, Ryan, Ryan, Ryan, Ryan, haha you started that one, being on our last dollar and still managing to get by, smelling our socks to see which ones can still be worn lol man that got so bad, your Australianims - jumper, singlet, oi, Mackers, toilet. Being unstoppable, realizing you actually have curly hair, baby oil, conditioner, Bubba Gump's,  never making it to the Tar Pits, me being horrible with money, me accidentally locking you out and you banging on the wrong window and the woman thought you were a peeping Tom lol too funny but I felt so horrible, a king size bed made from to different sized mattresses so in the end sleeping on one mattress, buying you new sheets and head testing your new pillows, pool days ending up in you trying to throw me in the pool, taking care of me when I'm not feeling well, you getting a membership at a gay gym and coming home with stacks of business cards from all the guys there, my southern twang accent you like so much, your british accent, telling travelers at the hostel I was a penguin trainer, SYNERGY, business plans that go just as fast as they came,  Dallas coming home wasted and spitting all night, Justo with his swollen eyes, earthquakes, me getting my miracle, my Paris Hilton Pefume, babe can I use your razor?  Emmie can I use your hair mousse?  Vikram's scissors, getting through the toughest times, growing as a person, sharing every waking and sleeping moment with someone (not always easy but we did it), never knowing what a song is called or who it's by even though you were a DJ, you branding me with the Australian flag, I always managed to find your hand and slip mine in it,  trying to buy me pepper spray,  you eating pretzels and jerky in bed,  grape fights and waking up to them in my hair, pinning me up against a chain link fence until I kissed you,  my very own Harry Potter (you never did show me any wizard tricks I'm thinking you glamoured me), "Emmie, Ryan have you seen my towel, oh wait I found it" "DONT USE THAT TOWEL!!!",  who was that guy that came into the room that night it wasn't Justin, Lopedawg, Em Dawg and Hawt Dawg, Leo Dicaprio, Twilight, Justin and his spray tan lol I did a bad job he looked like a Zebra, your house on the hill, Santa Monica Pier, Venice Beach, dry noodles, talking to me in your sleep, calling me turtle and then I lost my shell and you called me a slug and then said sea turtle because they are cuter,  being your heating blanket and calling me a Polar Bear, Mother Hen, tocitos at 3am (bad idea),  Massive Attack, Air, La Roux, hookers in Vegas thinking I was working you, Zietgiest and remembering your dreams...I hope I didn't forget anything.
These past five months have been incredible.  We went through hell and high water together and I would not take a second of it back.  It wasn't always easy, you went through your depression and I went through dealing with Max stuff, but we supported each other no matter what.
It was harder not living with you then it was living with you.  It was more of a struggle but we got through that too.  We wouldn't let anything or anyone tear us down.  We were in it together no matter what.
 You have taught me so much about myself these past few months. When we met I was heart broken and wanting close myself off to the world and others. I tried to be bulletproof but you wouldn't let me. Bit by bit everyday you listened and let me be me with no judgment calls.  You showed me what it's like to have what I deserve in life.  You made me feel beautiful again inside as well as out, that I'm strong and I can take on anything life throws at me. You always say your a lucky man but I consider myself a lucky woman.  Lucky to have someone in my life like you and share with you what we shared.  There are no words to describe what you mean to me or what we had together means, I can try to explain but I know you could look in my eyes and understand because with you I don't always need to say it you just know.  For the first time in my life I actually felt worthy of something so incredible that always seemed just out of my reach and you took my hand and shared the beauty with me.  It was like everything I shared with you was the first time I shared it with anyone, like everything we were doing was the first time for both of us.  I grew up so much and can stand on my own two feet now, no matter what comes at me.
I watched you grow from this "Cool guy" who always needed to prove something to people and  himself what he what he believed in,  a guy who needed a five year plan to feel settled and comfortable in life into a man who knows what his beliefs are and he doesn't need to prove them anymore because he knows where he stands with himself.  A man that still wants a five year plan but it's ok to stop and smell the roses and take things day by day.  A man that knows as people we aren't perfect and we make mistakes and it's ok, and a man who realized it's ok to let your feelings take over sometimes.
I never thought you would fall in love with me.  I tried so hard not to but I finally let go of my fears and let it happen.  Loving someone and them loving you back is an amazing feeling and when we both finally let go it was so beautiful and I will always hold on to it.
Saying goodbye to you last week was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Then you showed up at the hostel to say goodbye one last time. You are my best friend, my family and my lover and I miss you like crazy, but maybe this is just another challenge for us.  We never went two weeks without something coming up and biting us but no matter what we got through it.  Nothing ever broke us, nothing ever knocked us down,  together we are unstoppable and no matter what happened we just seemed to get stronger and closer...closer then either of us ever thought.  It's hard not having my best friend around,  who is going to pick me up when I'm down, who is going to be in bed waiting to hear about my day,  who is going to sit and talk about nothing all night but yet it's the most important conversation.  You get me Ryan, and I have never had that.  You got the real me, shell gone and all and I don't regret it.
I miss you so much but know we will see each other again soon.  Just remember who you are and don't lose sight of that, and when in doubt I gave you my world so just hold on to it.
 I would sleep with you in a box in a ten year dream.
I love you
Turtle
xoxox

Celebrity Sighting #15 and #16

Wednesday night at The Vibe I met Amber Stephens from the TV show GREEK.  I actually thought she was an actual sorority girl but it turns out the show is scripted and none of it is real .
Friday night I went out with Alex and Tim.  We ended up meet this guy - I don't know if they knew him - and going back to his apartment for some drinks.  Turns out he played young Wormtail in the Harry Potter movies.  Super cool.

Celebrity Sighting #13 and #14

Last night Ryan his mom and I went to the Arclight theatre to go see Inception - of course because Ryan loves Leo and was super stoked after seeing him at the movie premiere last week.
When we got there both Ryan and his mom had to go to the toilet so I waited in the lineup to get popcorn and soda.  I noticed this couple beside me.  She was pregnant and he had his arms wrapped around her bulging belly.  I smiled to myself and thought of how beautiful this picture was.  I really wasn't paying attention to them,  I mean I was but not who they were,  I noticed his style, their wedding bands, she was pretty and how he just held on to her they just really brought a smile to my face.
I was looking over my shoulder for Ryan and his mom when I made eye contact with the guy and he got this look on his face like he was pissed off that I looked directly at him.  I thought it was a little weird - but things are weird in Hollywood so it was nothing new.  He looked really familiar,  I was wondering where I knew him from, and then it came to me.  I stole a another glance hoping he wouldn't notice just to make sure.  It was James Van Der Beek with wife Heather Mccomb (I had no idea who she was until I just googled him to make sure he was married and I didn't make another celebrity mistake lol).  Being here for five months I have learned to keep my cool,  I was so tempted to take out my iPhone and snap a picture but after that evil stare he gave me I didn't think a picture was the best way to go. Oh Hollywood how I love thee.
The movie was great.  Actually it was better then great, it was mind blowing go see it, one of the best movies I have seen in a really long time!!!

What's My Journey About?!?

I have been gone almost 5 months!  It seems like a lifetime since I left but yet it seems like I just got here yesterday.
People always ask me "what are you doing out here?"  "Why are you doing what you are doing?"  "what is your plan out here?"  For a long time I didn't know how to answer any of these questions,, or maybe I did but I was just too scared to say it.  I've been thinking about writing this blog for a few days now,  I know that I have to write this and let all of you know everything,  what got me out here, how it all happened and why it happened.  It's not easy but I'm not afraid anymore to let anyone know how this started and what this journey has been about.
Last year some of you got a phone call from me saying I met someone who was amazing and beautiful and he asked me to marry him and I said yes.  Yet it was secret and my family didn't know.  I was really discreet on how I met him. I did tell many of you how I met him at a club, he was in the city on a shoot and we met one night and thats it, we just knew we wanted to be together and that was that.
Not so much.  The truth is thats not how I met him.  I met him on a dating chat line, but I never actually met him. I know it's crazy, I can't even explain why I fell for it or why I felt that it could work.  I never wanted to be one of those girls who fell into one of those traps, falling for someone over a chat line,  and maybe I did and maybe I didn't I still don't know.  In the whole time I believed in this I got frustrated.  I wanted just for once,  to have what so many of my friends had around me.  Love.  Is that so wrong?  Is it so wrong I hated that no one could trust what I felt? That I just wanted someone to support my choices instead of telling me everything I was doing was wrong? That I knew what I was doing?  Even reading this you might think I didn't but once you read this post  you will know that I knew what I was doing from day one.
I got to the point I couldn't take it anymore.  I hadn't talked to him in months but I just knew, something in my stomach told me to "go to LA, with or without him."  Everyone thought I was crazy,  I kept saying I was coming out here for him, which to a point I was. People said, give up, it's not worth it, move on, you can do better; but I couldn't go on without knowing, I needed answers, so with barly a goodbye to my friends I packed up and left with Los Angeles as my destination.
When I came out here I knew things with Max were done,  despite what I said.  Deep down inside I knew that we had been done for awhile, but I (felt) I needed to prove to everyone that I could have this life that I thought I was to have with Max.  I needed to prove that I could go and do my own thing and survive and be my own person.  I was afraid to let everyone know they had been right the whole time,  that once again I had made a bad decision,  I wanted to be right and prove it.  So I left.
I came out here, empty, frustrated and wanting to close myself off to everyone; but I became full of life and experiences, hope and courage.  I met and made some of the best friends I have ever made in my life.  Instead of being closed off I learned what it's like to love and be loved back by someone deserving.  I have had the opportunity to sit down with one of the best people I have ever met and just talk with no judgment but just understanding.  I have learned that I am strong and I am a survivor and I am ready to take whatever it is that life has to throw at me because I am able to take it and throw it back even harder.
I know I fucked up with some of you back home, and I'm sorry.  I just wanted support and some understanding and maybe you were giving it to me but I was being blind, especially to some of my greatest friends who really did nothing but care about me being reckless and wanted the best for me.  I'm sorry that I couldn't see what you saw.............I did see what you saw I just didn't want to believe that it wasn't real.  I love all of you guys and miss you all so much and I hope that we can put all of the past behind.
I know that some of you will judge me on this, and how I really met Max, but if thats the case then you are not the type of person I want or will keep in my life,  because when it comes down to it the whole thing with Max is the best thing that ever happenend to me.  If it wasn't for what I went through I never would've gotten on that plane and come out here and I never would've experienced the best 5 months of my life.
There are no words to explain what I have experienced since I have been out here,  I can say its been, incredible, heartbreaking, tearful, fulfilling, challenging but even that will not even compare to how my experience really has been.  I have no regrets in anything I have done or any decision I have made and am so proud of what I have done but also proud of who I have become since I have left 5 months ago.
A few days ago I went down to the beach, alone, just to clear my head.  I wanted that to really think about everything I have experienced since I have been out here, I wanted the excitement of being in California like when I first arrived.  I took it all in, the ocean, the palm trees, the homeless lying out sleeping in the hot sun, the pier, the sunbathers on the beach.  I stood on the bridge to the pier and just looked out at the view, how the sand and ocean eventually meet the mountains off in the distance.  It still takes my breath away which is exactly what I needed, a breath.  I have been so overwhelmed with emotion that I stopped breathing.  Now please don't think it's a bad thing, everything I have been through here is exactly what I needed.  What I am doing exactly is exactly what I am suppossed to be doing,  I just get so wrapped up I forget to stand back and take a look.  I want to remember every moment, because I am now realizing more then ever I can never get any of those moments back.  Even little things like hanging out in the dorms with roommates, or walking down Hollywood Blvd in the heat, sitting out on the steps on a hot night.  It's moments like these that make me realize how much I love Los Angeles!! I know I say I am getting sick of it but I really do love it out here and I will never forget my time or experience's that I have had here.
I'm not writing this so there are no "i told you so's" because like I said if thats what you want to do then do it, I don't expect apologies either.  The truth is I don't want any of that.  I have been writing these blogs since I left,  for me it's a sense of communication with everyone back home, it's my way of keeping in touch; but being in touch with you means being in touch with myself and thats what this blog is.  I finally know why I was meant to come out here and I didn't want to come home after all this growing and still not be truthful.
I don't think I have ever been as truthful with people as I have with the people I have met out here.  Travelers are a different type of people.  It's like this unspoken bond, a universal family.  I have talked with someone for  five minutes and they just get it. It scares me to think that someone I have just met can get me so much.    They get what I am feeling as I do them.  They know the feeling about going home. Going home is not easy, it's harder then leaving.  It's really scary thinking of coming home,  I know I have changed heaps and I'm scared of what it's going to be like, but it's all part of my journey and California is only the first chapter in that book
It wasn't easy for me to write this post either,  I have completely opened myself up and exposed everything but if I didn't write this then my growth as a person almost seems pointless.  So take it as you will.  It feels really good to let it all out there and let you in to my thoughts and experineces no matter who you are.  This is me and who I am and it is a great and wonderful feeling.  Just remember when I do come home it's still me, it's just a new me!

The steam from the engine wafts over the platform like a panorama of rolling clouds. With her single bag in hand she cut through the haze with intrepidness towards the train. As she climbed up the steps hesitation touched her and a breath escaped her pursed lips. The allure was too great. She knew what she had to do.

Celebrity Sighting #10 Cont. along with #11 and #12 - If you turn the Paige you will get a little Leo!!!

Remember my last blog where I wrote about this actor that came into my work but I couldnt remember his name? His name is Vince Schiavelli -  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PcS6gXEChbI . Or at least I thought he was Vince Shciavelli. When we talked about traveling I asked "didnt you travel with work?" "No, I worked for the phone company" "your not an actor?" "Everyone thinks I am Vince Schiavelli, I get it all the time." Apparrantly he gets it all the time, people who worked with Vince have come up to him and say "Vince! I haven't talked to you since we worked on (whatever movie)" To top it off these people that new vince do not even realize he passed away almost 10 years ago!!! So here I am thinking I have this great relationship with a retired actor who in the end isn't even alive. LOL. Only me. It's ok though I made a friend :) He comes in once a week to have dinner and talk about my travels.
A few days ago the Inception movie premiere was taking place on Hollywood Blvd. Red Carpet, Security, fancy cars, paparazzi and crazed fans (me being one of them) lined the streets. The first celebrity I (barley) saw (being short in a swamp of people doesn't make visibility easy) was Ellen Paige!!! But that wasn't who we were waiting for - mom your going to love this. Not having a good view Ryan and I found higher ground and a great view - of his favourite actor. Thats right LEONARDO DICAPRIO!!! HELLS YES. So cool. He walked the whole entire street signing autographs and saying hi to his fans. Pictures are in the album INCEPTION!!! It's a little hard to see but still visible, Enjoy!!!


PS the hostel I stay in has comedy night every Monday Night. MARLON WAYANS WAS ONE OF THE COMEDIENS. How cool is that. Too bad I was working LOL!!! Aww man gotta love it here!!!

Paulywood and a Dirty 30 in Vegas! and sighting #10

I know it has been a super long time but so much has been going on that I haven't had much time to write a blog. I have been super busy with my adventure here and have a lot to write so get comfortable.
Ok to start...about the second week of June Ryan and I got asked to leave the apartment.  It was too many people (4 people to a one bedroom) and just to loud all the time.  We had one week to move.  Ryan's mom was coming in from Australia so they were heading to Arizona and Paul was flying in for my Bday and then we were off to Vegas, so a week was really tight.  Ryan ended up staying with his mom when she got here so he was out on the Tuesday.  It was so upsetting.  This was the first time in 4 months that we had to spend 4 days apart.  LOL corny I know but it was really weird.  I had to sleep by myself haha.  Anyways it was okay because Paul flew out on the Wednesday for my Bday.
We had a blast.  It was so good to see him.  I couldnt stop touching his face lol. He said I talk really funny,k that I have an American accent now with Aussie slangs (all Ryan's fault) plus he thinks I have turned into a hardened bitch.  It's true my attitude has changed since living in Hell Aye.  He said I used to be so sweet now I'm mean LOL I guess we will see what you all think when I get back. The Thursday we did an LA City Tour.  It's a mini van with no roof and they take you all through LA to see famous peoples houses.  It was pretty awesome. We saw the houses of Doctor Phil (which was my favourite), Christina Aqguilara, Eddie Murphy, Playboy Mansion,  Michael Jackson, Julia Roberts - sometimes her kids are outside selling lemonade.  It's cheap lemonade too apparantly,  why would the children of a celebrity sell cheap lemonade you ask?  Because THEY DON'T KNOW SHE IS FAMOUS!!! I know right!  How weird is that.  We went by Courney Cox's house,  our tour guide said that "she doesn't seem to nice, that when they go by with the tour bus if she is outside she doesn't even wave, that she seems a little mean"  just as he said that we here from the front door "THATS RIGHT!" lol she heard him over the speaker too funny.
The next day Paul took me to universal studios.  Soo much fun.  We booked it through the hostel so we got a shuttle out there and back.  It was such a beautiful day out too so it really helped.  We went through the house of horrors which was sets and stuff from horror movies.  I HATED IT!!! Yes I know I am a horror movie buff and I always watch them, it doesn't mean I like to be in them.  They had people jumping out at us and werewolves,  frankenstein, crazy people with chainsaws, I screamed the whole way through and Pauly laughed histerically the whole way through.  We enjoyed Krustyland from the Simpsons, the best ride in the whole park, we even got to me Bart and Lisa.  We did the famous Tram Ride of the Studios which was super cool my favourite part,  we got to go through WhoVille!!! I was so excited. I was like " Pauly I always wanted to go to WhoVille"  It's really cool how all the buildings are totally fake and how in the movies they look so real.  They have one area that looks European city and all they have to do is change the language of the signs.  They show how they can flood a town and when they make it rain the put powdered milk in the water so it shows up better on camera.
We also did the Jurassic Park ride which was awesome, now I know where all the dinosaurs are living.  We did the Mummy's Tomb.  This awesome inside rollercoaster in the dark and then all of a sudden it goes backwards.  I screamed the whole way and shut my eyes until I realized opened or closed it still looked the same lol. We got back that day totally bagged and tired from the past two days but thought lets party.  I had moved into the hostel for the night because I had to be out of the apartment and we were leaving the next day.
I was so hurting the next day.  We drank till all hours of the morning and had to be up by 7am to go to the Greyhound for 9am.
So we get on the Greyhound and head to Vegas!  We had to transfer in Downtown LA.  Worst Greyhound experience of my life.  The bus was late meaning we boarded and left late.  Once we got on the bus I asked the bus driver if we were still going to arrive on time "I don't know maam"  "Well I am just wondering because we are running 20 minutes late"  "SO WHAT I'M LATE.  DO YOU WANT TO GET OFF THIS BUS RIGHT NOW AND WAIT FOR ANOTHER ONE! I HAVE NO PROBLEMS REMOVING YOU FROM THIS BUS.  I CAN'T FLY THIS BUS"  " I know that but your still late, what is your name?" "YOUR THIS CLOSE TO GETTING KICKED OFF SO EITHER BE QUIET OR YOU WILL BE REMOVED"   Can you believe that we hadn't even left the station.  The woman infront of me was just mortified she took down a bunch of info and was lodging a complaint.  Thats not all.  There were these two girls laughing on the bus and all of a sudden our Lionel Richie looking bus driver says "EXCUSE I LIKE THAT YOUR HAVING FUN BUT THAT IS TOO MUCH AND YOU ARE DISTRACTING PLEASE STOP LAUGHING"  oh it gets better.  We had a half hour stop and he starts talking about at 3hundred hours this and that, like we were in the army.  "If you are late and you knock on the door i will not open it for you"  Well lucky for everyone we all made it back early and on time.  As we get back out on the road again he comes on the speaker and says "PLEASE REMEMBER WHEN SPEAKING IT'S TO THE PERSON BESIDE, IF I CAN HEAR YOU, YOU ARE TALKING TOO LOUD"  I had enough at this point. I was shaking I was so mad.  We finally arrive in Vegas and 10 minutes early for that matter.  As I am getting off the bus he wanted to just move something so I wouldnt scratch my leg and as he is moving it he saids "I am going to move this so you don't hurt your knee I don't want you talking bad about a brother"  I started laughing " Oh, don't you worry I am lodging a complaint about you!" He didn't like this too much he started yelling at me across and cussing at me across the parking lot and then had the odasity and unprofessionalism to stand there and talk about me with employees of Greyhound.  I was so mortified, I couldn't stop shaking and I was so embarrassed.  ONe of the girls on the bus said she couldn't believe the treatment he gave to everyone on the bus and was going to lodge a complaint.  I haven't yet but I am hoping for a refund and some sort of credit as I am planning and traveling with them very soon and am second guessing their company.
Anyways!!! We finally get to our resort an hour after we got dropped off at the station.  THE FLAMINGO.  Our room was awesome, on the 25th floor with floor to ceiling windows that looked out over the resort.  The location of the resort was awesome too right in the center of the strip.   Ryan and his mom were meeting us out in Vegas.  They were staying at Circus Circus.  Ryan said they wanted to do dinner with us and then we could go out.
It was so good to see him.  I really missed him.  You don't really realize how close you are with someone and how much time you spend with them until you spend a few days apart.  Well his mom and him wanted to go to The Steakhouse for dinner for my Birthday!  My most favourite restaurant.  Mmmmmm it was so good.  The best prime rib in the world, I can still taste it.  I was sucking on the fat just to get every last bit of meat off haha.  After dinner we walked back to our resort.  His mom taps me on the shoulder and said "it's midnight" and gave me the biggest mom hug in the world.  It was so awesome!!!
We got back to the resort and his mom said goodbye and we began to enjoy the bottles of rum and vodka we had in our room.  Our buddy Ben - that we had met in Vegas in March (check out Our Arrival - Vegas) - came by and had a few drinks and left around 3 am.  Pauly passed out so Ryan and I decided to go next door to O'sheas - my favourite bar.  I left my ID in my room so the guy wouldnt serve me so we ended up just going back up to the room and calling it a night.
The next day we decided to spend the day at the pool and just chill.  There was the huge lagoon pool with a water slide which is beautiful but infested with under agers and kids and then there is the 21 and over pool which was $15 to get into (for the guys).  It was worth every penny.  A DJ all day,  a party in the pool,  big huge flamingo's surround the pool on pillars that shoot little waterfalls into the pool, free drinks, a couch area with a hookah, a bar, hot weather and all the palm trees had misters on them that sprayed out mist all day long to keep you cool.  I couldn't have asked for a better way to spend my birthday.  My best buddy and the most important person in my life right now and thats all i needed and to top it off Paul and Ryan are like peas and carrots.  They got along so well it was disgusting, it almost scared me lol but it was great.  I called my mom, it was my first birthday without her so I got a little teary eyed when I got off the phone but the party and the drinks helped.  We danced, we did the crab, the lobster and the dolphin, we drank, sang and just had an all around good time.
Ryan had to leave around 2 to go meet up with his mom.  He was so wasted he could barley walk straight LOL plus his shoes were up in the room and he refused to get them and wouldn't take my flip flops.  "Babe I will walk in barefeet I will be fine.  I will see you tonight"  kissed me and stubbled out of the pool area. Well turns out the pavement was so hot his feet blistered and he had to buy some flip flops lol, what a dork.  HIs mom didn't even know he was drunk, I have no idea how he pulled that off.
Paul and I ended up passing out in the room till about 11 that night, we were so bagged from the sun and drinking all day. We were barley up to going out but we got ready and started having a few drinks.  Ryan got back to our resort at about 230am and we headed out to the bar we always end up at the Piano Bar at New York New York.  So much fun.  We all dressed up and just sat and drank Red Bull Vodka all night.  It helped me as I wasn't feeling well, I had a bit of sun stroke so I was a little nauceous but the drinks helped.
Around 5am this girl comes strolling in and Paul said "watch this, she is working, watch what she does"  well he was right she was working "hooked a guy and they left walked into the casino but didnt get passed there because he walked away.  So she comes back and she starts chatting up Paul.  Oh god I'm thinking how are we going to get her to leave.  She was so trying to hustle him and get him to leave and then asks him if I was working Ryan!!! She thought I was a hooker!!! She honestly thought I was trying to work Ryan!!! I may have been dressed sexy but I was definatly dressed nice and did not look like a hooker.  How rude LOL!
We got up and left and when we got outside the sun was up and we realized it was like 7am and I am starting to feel better and ready to party.  As we are walking out a limo pulls up and I said "awww you showed up.  It's my bday did you forget to pick me up"  Well apparantly all the hustling I have learned on my adventure paid off because next thing you know we have a free limo ride back to our resort.  FUCKING AWESOME!  Perfect end to a perfect day.
Ryan left the next day and Paul and I went down to the pool.  We didnt stay too long as it was hot and I still wasn't feeling well. We really just slept and hung out all day and I had to leave the  next day.
I said goodbye to Paul and Ben drove me to the Greyhound station again.  Thank god my ride back was awesome I had no one beside me so I could stretch out and the driver was an angel compared to the last guy.
We still hadn't found an apartment so Ryan booked us back into the Bungalow in a 16 bed dorm LOL a lot of people but way cheaper then the other rooms.
Well Vegas made me broke.  Flat broke.  I could afford one night at the hostel and nothing more. Not a meal not even a ride back home.  Ryan and I talked the next day and decided that I needed to call home and ask my parents if they could buy me a ticket so I could come home.  We laid on the bed for awhile. I was bawling my eyes out.  We said our goodbyes to each other.  It was so sad.  I didnt wan't to let go of him.  He dragged me off the bed and said I'm taking you for dinner for our last meal.  "Okay, lets go to Mr. Pizza.  If the owner is in I can talk to him about work I dropped my info off yesterday maybe there is hope"
We get there and the owner wasn't in.  So we sat down at the table completely sad and depressed and talked about everything from the when we met up until now.  "Remember when I almost had to go home,  it was after the rave and I was broke and I almost had to leave?"  "Ya" I said "but then your phone rang and the smoke shop was calling you to tell you you got the job and you started the next day!  It was your miracle and you got to stay"  "Ya it was pretty cool"  " I'm still waiting for my miracle, I'm not ready yet to leave" I said. Just then at that exact moment my phone rang.  It was the owner of Mr Pizza telling me I got the job and I start that night!!  MY MIRACLE!!! Can you believe that.
So I am still here.  I am still at the hostel though unfortunatly not with Ryan.  He had to get an apartment.  Because I don't have much more time in America and I plan on continuing on in a month he really needed to find a place for himself because he is out here till January.  His place is awesome, right across the street from his work and it has a pool!  So we are planning a pool day this Saturday.  I'm not gonna lie, it's really weird not living with him.  It sucks coming home to an empty bed or not having someone to talk to about my day or their day :(  But I really do believe we need this separation.  It's gonna be easier when I leave.  So for now here I am in the smallest little room with 5 guys that are a hoot, though I am being moved to the other hostel tomorrow because I am a long termer.
Last but not least the other night an actor came into my work.  It's my 10th sighting.  He sat down at one of my tables and had dinner.  Now here is the thing he is one of those actors that you don't know his name or know off the top of your head what he has been in but when you see him your like "oh that guy"  so ya.  I can't even tell you his name which sucks but my dad really likes him haha.  I will find out one of these days and I will fill in the blanks lol.
Well I hope you enjoyed my update.  Please check out my two new photo albums on facebook - Paulywood and Dirty Vegas!!!  All the pictures are there.
Take care
xoxox

Celebrity Sighting #9

So the other night for work I got sent to Koji's which is this sushi restaurant up on Hollywood Blvd that turns into a bar at night (one of my favourite places to work).
It wasn't busy at the begining of the night so I was just standing at the front door feeling out the crowd.  These three guys walk in and are all over my shots.  One of the guys looked familiar,  I thought he was someone from back home in Collngwood but I couldn't place him.  Well they bought some shots and asked me my name. "Emmie" I said "Like the award" one of them looked at the familiar guy and said "you lost 3 of those didn't you" "Ya" he said "I was nominated three times but never got one"  I just looked at him "I'm serious he said"  "thats ok, I can be your Emmy for the night" I said  "you can even hold me up"  "by the way" I continued "you look extremely familiar but I can't place your face or name"  " Dave Foley - comedian,  I was on Kids in the Hall"  "thats right, I actually thought you were someone from back home in Collingwood"  "Collingwood?  I went to CCI"  haha and then we stood there and talked for a half hour about Cwood.  It was awesome since no one here knows where or what Collingwood is.  It was a really awesome night and Dave is a really real person which is awesome because you don't get that a lot with people in LA.  And, to top it off I sold out of shots!

Loves it!!!